McClain: 'I'm aware of the bad publicity that I've given the Raiders'
The Raiders made Rolando McClain the eighth overall pick in the 2010 NFL Draft; he recorded 245 tackles and 6.5 sacks in three years with the Raiders. (USATSI)
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Rolando McClain has come out of hiding. The former Raiders linebacker is the subject of an extended feature by ESPN the Magazine that details his life following McClain's surprise retirement from the NFL.
The article talks about the personal mistakes made by Raiders' 2010 first-round pick, his run-ins with the law and how he checked out on the Raiders, the Ravens and his life after returning to the University of Alabama as a college student.
He told the magazine about his dark periods, which included pent up aggression he had a tough time releasing.
"I was feeling like Aaron Hernandez or something," McClain said, "like I just wanted to kill somebody."
McClain, 24, spent three seasons with the Raiders, and the article includes details about an argument with coach Dennis Allen during the 2012 season that got the linebacker benched and eventually suspended.
An excerpt about his time with the Raiders:
“Though he had 246 tackles in three years, he was basically checked out: He hated the endless meetings, the required media sessions, the losing, the collective toll of not living up to expectations at a job that he resented. At one point, McClain told safety Michael Huff, one of his few friends on the Raiders, "I don't want to play."
During a practice in November 2012, McClain loafed during a drill. Head coach Dennis Allen told him to get out if he didn't want to run at full speed. McClain got out, mumbling something under his breath. He and Allen ended up screaming at each other. McClain was benched, then suspended. McClain knew he was cheating his team and himself. And as GM Reggie McKenzie says now, ‘I agreed.'